Song: Stupid - Sarah McLachlan

Girls, you may identify with this song! A few of my girlfriends went through the experience of falling in love with a guy who was totally wrong for them and no matter what they did they would still melt whenever they saw him. So what we used to do, was to put this song on in the car, crank it up really loud, and sing at the top of our lungs! It always made my girlfriends feel better, plus I enjoy singing in the car, so call me any day to join in! LOL

"Night lift up the shades let in the brilliant light of morning
But steady me now for I am weak and starving for mercy
Sleep has left me alone to carry the weight of unraveling where we went wrong
It's all I can do to hang on, to keep me from falling into old familiar shoes.

How stupid could I be
a simpleton could see
that you're no good for me
but you're the only one I see.

Love has made me a fool set me on fire and watched as I floundered
unable to speak except to cry out and wait for your answer
and you come around in your time speaking of fabulous places
create an oasis that dries up as soon as you're gone
you leave me here burning in this desert without you.

How stupid could I be
a simpleton could see
that you're no good for me
but you're the only one I see.

Everything changes everything falls apart
I cant' stand to feel myself losing control
In the deep of my weakness I know.

How stupid could I be
a simpleton could see
that you're no good for me
but you're the only one I see."

A simple way to help out

Check this out guys. Open this link and you will find a yellow button that says "help feed the hungry". When you press that button you would have helped feed one hungry person! So start your morning routine by clicking on this button. Let the clicking begin!

http://www.thehungersite.com/cgi-bin/WebObjects/CTDSites

New Haircut!

I came home today with a mission...I was gonna cut my hair! And it better look good! I just needed a change! So I went down right after work before I changed my mind and got my hair cut. I must say it is a very different cut. It's still long but more mature looking. I straightened it too which is not something I usually do. I just hope it looks good while curly coz he cut it pretty short in the front! And no way am I straightening it all the time! I prefer the curls. My close guy friend told me I looked more grown up and the cut gave me a different "attitude"...not sure what he meant but I do know it makes me look like a different person! I am not sure how I feel about that just yet...

It never gets any easier to say bye to my dad...

My dad works in Saudi Arabia and has been working there since December 2002. So it has been about 3 years now since he has started living away from us. December 2002 was the first time that my dad ever left us for a long period of time. My dad used to work 5 mins away from our home in Cairo and he used to always be home by 4pm maximum so he was very involved in our lives and we were a very close family. Since he left to go to Saudi our family has become less and less close...When he left all the load fell on my mum so she's always stressed out, and the rest of us feel the void of not having him around. We miss him, so much so that even though he has been coming and going for 3 years now I still cry my eyes out every time he leaves...Its a very bad feeling. When he leaves I feel like a part of me is leaving and the pain is unbelievable. I get very choked up. And its the same intense feeling every single time he leaves...I was hoping it would get better with time but it does not. But then again, I am glad it doesnt get any less painful because if it does it means I am getting used to not having him around which I dont want to do. I dont want to turn into one of these kids who gets so used to not having their dads around that when he's around they are upset. They start seeing their fathers as someone who comes and disrupts their routine...as someone else who comes with his own rules for you to obey...then the fathers keep buying more and more expensive gifts to try and win their kids over...I don't want to reach that point...no matter how painful it is to say bye every time, I'd rather that then to look at my dad as some stranger. My dad is precious to me...and I miss him and will continue to miss him always.

Song: Forget Me Not - Lucie Silvas

"Forget me not I ask of you
Wherever your life takes you to
And if we never meet again
Think of me every now and then.

We had just one day to recall
Now all I want is something more
Than just a fading memory
Left wondering what could have been.

Isn't it a shame, that when timing's all wrong
You're doing what you never meant to,
There's always something that prevents you.
Well, I believe in fate, it had to happen this way
But it always leaves me wondering whether...
In another life we'd be together
We should feel lucky we can say...we've always got yesterday.

And as I leave it all behind
You're still emblazoned in my mind
And for that very special day
Nobody loved me in that way.

Forget me not I ask of you
Wherever your life takes you to
And if we never meet again
Think of me every now and then."

My diagnosis is: Music-dependent

A very close friend of mine is a psychologist and she sorta sat with me and discovered my whole character and personality from a scribble I did. And she got things so right to the point that she discovered things about me that I didnt even know! I usually dont believe in this stuff but she really knew what she was doing...she did it for me on a bus ride home and she did it for another guy too and through the whole bus ride he was like "how the hell did u know that!" and he'd stay thinking and thinking then ask her again! She's awesome...and one of my closest friends in the world...I love you NOHA! One of the things she discovered was my sorta dependence on music! I never realized how much I depended on music till she said it. I tend to listen to music all the time! When I'm happy, sad, distracted, lost, etc. But why I do it...always to help me feel whatever I am feeling even more...it allows my feelings in that particular moment to intensify. And afterwards I feel better...its as if its my therapy. And most of the time its the lyrics that get to me...many songs can really affect me just because of the lyrics...even if the song sucks! So I thought it would be interesting to put a song in my blog every now and then that expresses the way I feel in a particular moment then look at my blog again later. It should be interesting.

Thursday nights spell disastor!

In Egypt, our last working day is thursday so people usually go out thursday nights. I have not done that in a while primarily because the streets are just so horribly crowded that you'll never meet up with people on time and if you do you'll be in the worst mood ever. Then to top it off you go and find all the cafes, restaurants, movie theaters, etc. over booked, noisy, and full of kids! So, that's when my week day outings began! I think that is what encourages people to go out on any other day of the week but thursday! Today I went through the thursday night experience again and all it did was confirm that thursday night is the perfect day to just chill at home! My parents wanted to drive to City Stars in Nasr City (a 40 minute drive from my house in normal egyptian traffic) to check out the new stores and to have a cup of coffee. We took over an hour to get there! With the stupid way some people drive in cairo...so we got there annoyed already! Couldnt find a parking space because it seemed like all of cairo was going to city stars with us! Then after parking we took forever to enter the mall due to the crowds...and then we stayed in the mall for maybe 2 hours. We couldnt find a single to corner to have coffee in so we left and decided to go have coffee elsewhere...but that never happened. The ride back home was worse...and we got to a traffic light that was green so my dad kept driving realizing in the last second that a policeman was stopping the traffic even though the light was green! So my dad stopped but a little too late coz they had already written down his license plates! By that point my dad was like Im going home and I dont wanna go down ever again! And after all that, you think back and realize you didnt enjoy the outing one bit! All I was happy about was the 2 CDs I bought at the mall but that was about it! Enjoying thursday nights at home will continue to be my policy it seems!

We will miss you Arthur

Arthur, our NLDS chair, has now gone on to his next adventure in the Netherlands. We wish you all the luck in the world Arthur and we know that you will continue to have a positive effect wherever you go. You will continue to inspire and encourage people to be all that they can be. Your influence will be missed here but it will always be there. We will always remember you and like you said...we will see you here again! That's the effect of Egypt...people always come back at some point...noone can stay away! So I wont say goodbye...I'll say see you later! Because I am sure you will be back. Till then Arthur, keep a good record of all your new stories because we will be waiting to hear them! Miss you already! Keep in touch!
You can check out the pics of this outing here:
http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/daoudmai/album?.dir=2c7f

Happy Eid!

Happy Eid everyone! It's that happy time of the year where you get to eat all day (after fasting for a month), get to buy/wear new clothes, get to see family members that you may not have seen since last eid, and hopefully get some extra cash from your close family members. This year my eid was not that special but my dad came from Saudi which is always great! I am a real daddy's little girl. On the first day, my dad came and woke us all up at 9am. ANNOYING!!! But I guess he wanted to have breakfast with us so I couldnt hate him for too long! Then we drove in our new car to my grandma in heliopolis and then to other relatives of my dad. It was interesting. The relatives I didnt know too well but I love to hear the stories of how much of a trouble maker my dad was when he was younger. Its just hilarious! Then we went to Maadi to have lunch in Lucilles. I must say the place has deteriorated! I hadn't gone for at least 3 years and I was dissappointed. At night a relative of my dad came over and that was my day! Today I have a wedding with my parents...I am not that enthusiastic about it but I guess its nice to have my dad with me in a wedding for a change. I think the last time I did that I was extremely young and lately my mum and I go alone since my dad's working abroad. Wish me luck! I hope I dont hear too many "3obalik ya Mai!"

What's so important about getting me a bf?

I realized something...all my friends over the past year and a half have been trying to set me up with guys or pushing me towards certain guys or just plain discussing the issue of me not having a boyfriend. Its very sweet of them, I know they just want to see me happy but at the same time, lately, they make it sound like its their mission to get me hitched! LOL...friends...I love you to death but honestly there's nothing wrong with being single for a while! But since you are all soooo insistent I decided to write down what I'm looking for in a guy. All I want, is a guy who can make me smile and laugh! I want someone who I can have a good time with. Someone who'd go dancing with me! Someone who'd travel with me! Someone who'd sing with me in the middle of the streets. Basically, no matter what we did together, no matter how childish or silly it is, we'd have a good time! A sense of humour is more important to me than anything else, believe it or not. He has to be my buddy...I have to be able to talk to him about anything and everything. I always like guys who do the little sweet things as well...he doesn't have to be overly romantic but just the little things mean alot like giving me a hug or holding my hand (very corny I know). Hmmm...what else...if I think of something else I'll add it later! LOL.