Aging

One could describe aging in many different ways. One could see it as the slow deterioration of a person's life; the young always have more fun. One could see it as the long awaited calming of the storm where you know who you are and the confusions of life become non-existent. One could see it as the accumulation of experiences; you find less and less things to do for "the very first time".

I have often thought of what my view would be and I would find that it would always be associated with panic. I worry that its always NOW that you must be beautiful, must do the correct career move, must do masters, must travel, because later you'll be older and you wont be able to. I should be fit NOW because I could never be as beautiful as I could be today. I should study NOW because later I may be in a relationship where I wouldn't want to leave my love behind. I should travel on this trip abroad NOW even if I dont have the money because it'll get harder and harder to get the people together as we get older.

At the same time, I cant wait till I have had enough experiences to be truely confident in who I am so that I am less confused. Imagine where you are so at peace with yourself that you become more predictable, with more people understanding you, and you have less explaining to do. Your next step in life is clearer and things are just...calm. Its an inner bliss that I cant wait to have but at the same time am afraid to gain at the expense of more excitement and activity.

From time to time ask yourself what aging must mean to you because it may change your view on what your life's about and what it SHOULD be about.