No more pink...let the black win...

If you can believe it...mai's world is no longer pink...and mai doesnt want to paint it pink for some time...mai just wants to be alone...whether its in my room, on a beach, in another country, doesnt matter...I just need to stay with myself and remember HOW I used to paint my world so pink...so pink that every time a black spot appeared I managed to paint pink over it and forget that that black spot was ever there...now the black spots are spreading and I am just watching the pink dissappear slowly slowly...and I see it dissappearing and a part of me says "run, paint pink quickly before its too late, paint it pink before it gets too black to paint over it again"...but the greater part of me is just frozen, willing to let the black win this time...