IPM is over...its re-adjusting time

IPM took up my whole life for the past month and for the past year it has taken up quite a chunk as well. To wake up this morning and to find myself getting ready to go to work, and staying there till 6pm, then having a home cooked meal, and watching this thing they call TV was just weird. Its such a drastic change. For the past month, I have been eating out ALL the time, hardly sleeping, and definately had no time to watch TV! Would go to work in the morning, go to cc meetings after work, then go home and work on assigning tasks for the teamsters so while I'm at work they have something to do! So it was just insane! I was living on 4-5 hours sleep every day and was travelling to helio all the time (yes its far enough to be considered travelling), and oh my god not following my curfew in any shape or form! Eventually, things got more and more hectic with IPM approaching and I became more and more restless. Partly due to feeling pulled from all directions...work...CC...and family! But once the conference began...I had moments where I would totally collapse coz I had taken too much of a load upon myself and my team...like with the check in...but as the first and second days passed...things slowly slowed down and the conference was just happening! And actually happening smoothly and well. I did my best to try to take it all in as it happened because it gets hard to do that when you are only focused on organizing...I did manage to get to know delegates, and form stronger bonds with some cc members. I did get to smile, cry, yell, and laugh. I experienced all sorts of emotions and alot of the time within the same day. What I do regret though is being too tired to party, too tired to really spend time with people, and not really spending any time on my own to collect my thoughts and prep up. If I could do it all again, all I would change is just that...dividing the work a little better so everyone got a chance to get to know delegates, to spend some time to reflect, etc because I know it wasnt only me missing out on all that. But overall, the experience was a learning one for me. I did things that I didnt think I could do, and behaved in ways that people didnt expect. I didnt expect to be able to stand my ground, or to get so mad, or to even cry in front of everyone! I didnt expect to really bond with certain cc members whom now I feel so weird not being around them 24/7. Now it will be a huge shift of pace that I need to readjust myself to. I need to get used to being home again where I do need to be more present and available...that will be hard after 2 months of just doing what you want when you want. I need to get used to not feeling guilty when I get some sleep or go out...which will be hard since I had to give up quite a number of outings the past year for cc stuff and definately had some very restless sleeps in IPM due to guilt! I will take some time in the next few days to look back and think about everything...and hope that I do not get too much of a cultural shock with this huge change in my lifestyle...especially since this was the last thing I would do in AIESEC as well...alot of things to get used to!