Keeping the connection going is hard work...

I realized something very important about myself...I have a very hard time letting go of people whom I like, whether they are friends, work colleagues, or just plain acquaintences. When I meet someone I like I just stay in contact with that person always and I dont understand the concept of knowing people for a short period of time then moving on. Like, you can meet someone nice in a trip then when you go back home that's it...you move on. With me it doesnt work that way...I put alot of effort in keeping in touch with everyone no matter how close or "unclose" they are. I've come to realize that doing that is exhausting. Emailing everyone, calling everyone, seeing everyone, is just time consuming and when I think about it...pricey as well. Plus, to do that means your are eating up your time...I spend less time with my family, less time with myself, less time thinking about what I want out of life...it just becomes a daily routine of "ok who have I not emailed or seen in a while?". And that becomes my goal of the day! And even though that's bad, I mean you do need to think about your own future and where your life is going, but I wouldnt be happy any other way! I would get upset if people I hardly know were out of my life. I just feel happiest when Im surrounded by people I love, respect, or look up to. There are a million reasons why I do this but I think the main one is I feel my world is complete when Im surrounded by people I adore. That's more important to me than a great job or a great car or a great anything. Whether this is the right way to go about life or not I guess only time will tell...