Surge of Energy

Out of days of many days of boredom and laziness, came this sudden surge of energy! Must put it to good use! I have many ideas, and all are feasible...but not feasible THIS SECOND...hmmm what is a girl to do?

My Love Affair with Batman

Recently I had a discussion with a friend about superheros, and which ones were our favorites. It started as a light chat to pass the time on the beach but it soon turned into a pretty enlightening discussion. Since I was a kid, no movie has struck me emotionally and caught my attention as much as Batman 1 and 2 did. Till today I remember the goosebumps I felt when Batman went into The Penguin's cave and how seeing Batman didn't bring the YAY reaction from me as Superman would. Instead his presence made me silent and intrigued. So my friend kept asking why Batman? My answer to that was always because he was more human than all the other superheros. He's a deep dark person with complexities. He is mysterious, with a lot of layers to discover. I just was attracted to that. Why would I do that to myself, I don't really know...but there it is...I am insane! And like complex people who don't necessarily fit your definition of "normal". Oh well, maybe life will teach me to start liking Superman instead...wouldn't that be a drag?

Standing outside and looking in...

Did you ever feel like you wanted to step out of your skin and watch yourself? Just to see if you are who you really think you are? To see if you want to re-evaluate your life? Remember again what's important and what's not? I'd like to think that I know all the answers but maybe I don't...too many people, memories, emotions, and familiar surroundings get in the way sometimes so you forget what you found to be really important in life...

Belief - John Mayer

The song we were listening to in the middle of the Basata sea was this song. Thank you to Samir who had the greatest invention ever; waterproof IPOD player which can even be heard underwater!

Is there anyone who ever remembers
changing their mind from the paint on a sign?
Is there anyone who really recalls
ever breaking rank at all
for something someone yelled real loud one time?

oh, everyone believes
in how they think it oughta be
oh, everyone believes
and they're not going easily

Belief is a beautiful armor
but makes for the heaviest sword
like punching underwater
you never can hit who you're trying for
some lead the exhibition
and some have to know they tried
it's the chemical weapon
for the war that's raging on inside

Oh, everyone believes
from emptiness to everything
oh, everyone believes
and no one's going quietly

We're never gonna win the world
We're never gonna stop the war
We're never gonna beat this
if belief is what we're fighting for

We're never gonna win the world
We're never gonna stop the war
We're never gonna beat this
if belief is what we're fighting for

Is there anyone you can remember
ever surrender with their life on the line?

We're never gonna win the world
We're never gonna stop the war
We're never gonna beat this
if belief is what we're fighting for

We're never gonna win the world
We're never gonna stop the war
We're never gonna beat this
if belief is what we're fighting for

What puts a hundred thousand children in the sand?
belief can, belief can
What puts a folded flag inside his mother's hand?
belief can, belief can

Basata's where I find Bliss :)

I used to always say that Basata is my heaven on Earth. Summer was the north coast for most people, for me it was Basata. After going to it last weekend, I was happy to find that it was still the closest place to my heart. Even though I went with the least bit of enthusiasm this time (I didn't even take my camera if you can imagine that!) I came back with it being one my best times there.

To enjoy Basata you should do the following things:
1. Take random people with you rather than your closest friends. You'll come back remembering how nice it feels like to connect to another human being whom you've never met before
2. Bring floating mattresses, but be prepared to share them with everyone
3. Mingle with the Basata guests and staff; it doesn't take much effort since everyone's so laid back that you'll find them talking to you on their own
4. Do a group cooking session at least once.
5. Chill out at night on the beach in the dark.
6. Bring interactive games like Taboo or Pictionary. You'll find yourself laughing so hard!
7. Snorkel while the sun is setting; you'll see amazing things after everyone's out of the sea and the sea creatures are feeling safe to come out
8. Spend some time alone just taking in the atmosphere. It heals the soul :)

The things that tickle me in life have become difficult to find in the busy city life, and I find them all in Basata. The intensity of a deep conversation. The stomach hurting laughter that comes out of you when you're sincerely happy. The feeling of cool water on your heated skin. The sight of a dark sky full of shooting stars. The stillness of your mind as you are looking at something so beautiful. The click you feel with someone new...its all there in Basata. There's no rush, no need to think, its just peace and my soul's medicine.

Inside the Actors Studio

There's this really cool show called "Inside the Actors Studio" which my dad actually got me interested in. What's it about? Well, you have this presenter, who asks actors questions related to how they do their job. Sounds like any other interview show right? But no, this takes place in an acting class amongst students learning the acting profession. So its down to earth, students get to ask these big actors professional questions, and its just so down to earth. No flashing lights, no ass-kissing presenters, its just you and the actor hearing about their profession, rather than their private lives or hearing them trying to sell one of their movies. Each episode also ends with the following questionnaire, which has gotten pretty funny and unique answers from each of the actors:
1. What is your favorite word?
2. What is your least favorite word?
3. What turns you on creatively, spiritually or emotionally?
4. What turns you off creatively, spiritually or emotionally?
5. What sound or noise do you love?
6. What sound or noise do you hate?
7. What is your favorite curse word?
8. What profession other than your own would you like to attempt?
9. What profession would you not like to do?
10. If Heaven exists, what would you like to hear God say when you arrive at the Pearly Gates?

And just so you can get a little taste of the show, here are some episodes:
Kevin Spacey
Angelina Jolie
Robin Williams
Tom Cruise

Happy Bday to Me :)

Couldn't have dreamt of a better way to celebrate my 25th bday...
- Was surrounded by the closest people to me
- PICTIONARY!
- I was allowed to take photos, which I know is extremely hard to do hehe
- Sincere smiles all the way :)
- Coziness
- Thoughtful gifts
- And just lots of love...

Thank you for such a special day and for reminding me that as long as there are good people in your life, then everything will be ok :) Love you all

Mirror Mirror

After having a rough day as I did today at my job I found myself wondering why do I like it so much. I realized that it’s because I get to FEEL at my job. I had been so good at switching off my feelings just because I felt it was too tiring to feel. Why get so worked up and angry when it was so much easier to just be calm and numb? Even feeling happy became such a hard thing to do even though it was always so easy for me. Now, I go through moments of anger, sadness, happiness, excitement, and total stress. Do I think it’s worth it? Maybe not in the long run coz I’d get a heart attack but for now, yes it’s worth it because I was dying inside. I’m happy that I am so mad right now that I just can’t sleep.
The other reason why I like my job is because I get to learn so much about myself. I’m under a microscope all the time. I have to assess how to work with this person, how to motivate that person, how to react when someone blows up in my face, how to react with politics, and just basically how to get the work done in the best way possible. Through the nature of my job I found out what my weaknesses and strengths are. I did not discover them in this much detail before. I found things I liked about myself which included me not being as naïve and weak as I thought I was. I also found things that are really bad like wanting to either do everything perfectly or feeling guilty for the tiniest things, or helping people when it’s out of my job description just because I can, not realizing that that makes me have to compromise on the quality of what IS in my job description. Its ugly having to look at yourself in the mirror that deeply and with everyone watching but its healthy and very much needed at the age I am in now. I just hope I learn to change the things I dislike, and keep the things I do like about myself. Only time will tell...hope I am able to do it before my flame fizzles out